Why I hate guys

There are reasons why girls in general dislike guys in so many ways tbh and here they are:

• they just want a super hot gorgeous girl regardless of her attitude
• even if the girl is super kind, the super-hot-gorgeous side is still their basis
• flirty in terms of non-verbal aka chats/social networking sites
• pacool or in other words, trying hard to be cool like wtf
• different attitude when they're with their friends  aka the jerk/douche
• pride
• taking pics of their motherfucking abs WHO DOES THAT 
• insensitive
• promise breaker
• kill joy 
• who thinks they are too old for doing fun things 
• KAPIT yeah with the P
• effortless 
• leaves someone hanging for no reason
• self-conceited

There might be stuffs that other women dislike about these dickfaces but here are just some of them. 

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So I've been posting a lot of "sorry for not updating" and I'm so sick of it, really. To be honest, I'm just reaaaaaally lazy to rant and share. Sometimes, when I type in what I want to say, the momentum is a high-low frequency in simple terms, I get really moody. I have to be frank okay because all the "sorry" ain't enough. I won't make any commitments anymore because obviously, I can't keep them. why do i even share this sort of thought? 

Drama mode: on

Last night, I prayed really long and kinda emotional. Approximately 30 mins so wow. Yeah I pray every night mostly all about how I thankful I am for everything but last night, I end up crying because lately, I knew a lot of revelations. Personal revelations in my family. I don't understand the situation tbh and idk the cause of it. Idk why does my dad have to treat us, his family, unfairly between his (my step brother and sister) children. All I could say is that fuck that. His son, Dax, he didn't achieved anything nor have a stable job but my glorious dad still have to spoil him by giving him what he fucking wants. I don't wanna call him as my brother in any aspect and as well to his sister. My dad wastes his effort to advise us to be wise and shit but did he ever looked at his sorry for the word, dumbass son? Does he even have something to be proud of? Only his arrogance is dominant to his petty self. I gathered all what I know and I end up saying "it all makes sense" because tbh I am exposed to this crappy revelations as I get old and it gets really infuriating. In the end, we're the losers cause probably that fatass is laughing his ass off because my dad loves him. Yeah, LOVES. I don't care anyway. It's not always about the money nor the material things. I don't know why does it have to conquer my dad's, mom's, siblings' mind. Money is not always the answer for fuck sake. I mean yeah we need it to spend it to our basic needs and stuff and maybe earn it instead but to use it as your advantage? Putangina. ITS ALL ABOUT BEING FUCKING HUMBLE. Maybe one day your world turns upside down, what now? Nganga? I don't want the issue of my parents, dax and cynthia to be a hinder to my determination to be successful. I really hate it how it affects me big time that I want to cry it all off.

I don't get the logic of casinos. I don't get it why people bother spending their money just because it's "fun". Every dealers gives the power for people to get addicted to that certain gamble. I witnessed a guy who asked my brother if he have some cash to lend. Of course he said no because he is a stranger. Losing  money is not fun at all. I feel really sorry for those people who depend their fortune from a LUCK.