What if...

What if I wasn't born? Michael was the only child that my mother carried in nov 17 1997. Things would be a lot different. 1.) no one will wash the dishes/ help in the household chores. 2.) no future.

What if I was dead?  probably, they'll remember me because i'm all over facebook/twitter and all those condolences. Maybe a few people would actually remember me by heart. 

What if I was adopted? no full blood family, the only fact that can be against me (family fights), wondering who my real family are. 

Sometimes, these what ifs thoughts happen when I'm miserable/sad/depressed/lonely. I just don't know my family anymore. I'm just.... tired.