Criticisms

As a realist, hearing criticisms about yourself is a struggle. Other people would say "Make it as your motivation" "Embrace failures"  can I just say it is fucking difficult to get over with words that have offended you? How can I embrace those when all it makes me is to hate myself more? Fuck it. I'm not here to be pessimistic, but to accept the reality. Criticisms are fucking painful and sadly, there's nothing that you can do to undo the said words. People will always judge you based from your physical assets and attitude, annoying right? I had a post regarding Judgemental People and it's all about my dad side, mostly. My aunts especially. They will do or say all the things that they could to bring us down. Currently taking up Education and I'm not really interested at all so I'm planning to shift.. guess what they said? "Just continue your course nalang kasi in demand ang mga teachers ngayon. Akalain mo 100USD/hour. San ka pa?" I wanted to answer them that they should go back studying in college and take up Educ. too so that they could pursue the job that they labeled as "in demand" rather than persuading a person who in which cases, education is out of her league. I wanted to take business and thank God that I receive grades that I deserve from my hardwork. They think I'm a failure ever since.. perhaps they have mistaken me from my step brother who is a spoiled brat all who does is sitting around, asking money from my dad, and have no stable job at all.

Tbh, do you feel fucking good about yourself? that you have humiliated someone already? satisfied? How immature and insecure you are, miss. Rubbing in my face all the lies that your mouth keeps on blurting about, don't you realize that good manners comes first before educational attainment? Guess you didn't succeed on that, miss. A well-educated yet not well-mannered person like you won't land on a deserving position, miss. As an optimistic would say "Let them be. Do what you want that makes you happy" honestly, it is true. Knowing that these kind of people won't make you any more happier, why complicate life? At the same time, as a realist, their words will definitely leave a mark that would affect my happiness that results to overthinking.

On a serious note, this is life. Every person will be judged. A tip from the realist (keep on saying that lol), words will come to your ear and will affect your feelings, it will lead you to the point of doubting yourself for like a week or a month but eventually, you'll get through it. You'll be all laughing all those silly lies that they keep on blabbering about and be all like "What now? SUCK IT!" Enjoy what you are doing. Ask help from people if it's necessary because come on, there are times that we can't decide on our own, right? That's the cycle: hear. listen. overthink. be better.