Agitated; Anxious

Just want to type this out. March 4 will be the results of my shifting exam aka MY FUTURE and I feel really suckish right now. That agitated feeling whenever that date is drawing near, incredible. Not. I don't fucking care what you call me but whenever I pray, these tears keeps on overflowing because when I start mentioning that exam, I start to throb, my booger's falling down, my voice become husky and I keep on snorting. It is seriously a big deal. A while ago, the Marketing results were out and my friend passed. I congratulated him of course. As for me, I didn't took the Marketing course. Ya'll think I took the exam then failed right? Nah. I can sense that it will all come up with an explosion saying that "You passed" or "You failed" in my head. I want to curl up in bed and think of how much this thing will turn out to. But whatever happens, Thank you Lord.