2014

Definitely a fast year indeed. Couldn't believe that it will be 2015 soon and tbh, I thought we would never make it. To sum up my year, here are the summary of each month:

January- Preparation for graduation e.g photo shoot 

February- Mom's birthday and the time that I was betrayed by a friend whom I thought I could trust on.

March- grad ball & graduation

April- dlsucet recon, results, summer bliss, driving school. 

May- Sun and beaches, south korea, first day of college. 

June and July- Talk about stress in school. 

August- Finals and rest

September- DL then the rest.... Nvm

October- The month I realized that I did the things that I promised not to do. 

November- Birth month! Macau with fam.  Then the victor guy. 

December- Of course, Christmas then a month full of driving.

Don't have any new year's resolution, as always 'cause I'm not good at fulfilling  my commitments. Maybe, not losing my composure. Yeah that would be a perfect one to keep in mind. :) Happy new year! Cheers for 2015 x

Criticisms

As a realist, hearing criticisms about yourself is a struggle. Other people would say "Make it as your motivation" "Embrace failures"  can I just say it is fucking difficult to get over with words that have offended you? How can I embrace those when all it makes me is to hate myself more? Fuck it. I'm not here to be pessimistic, but to accept the reality. Criticisms are fucking painful and sadly, there's nothing that you can do to undo the said words. People will always judge you based from your physical assets and attitude, annoying right? I had a post regarding Judgemental People and it's all about my dad side, mostly. My aunts especially. They will do or say all the things that they could to bring us down. Currently taking up Education and I'm not really interested at all so I'm planning to shift.. guess what they said? "Just continue your course nalang kasi in demand ang mga teachers ngayon. Akalain mo 100USD/hour. San ka pa?" I wanted to answer them that they should go back studying in college and take up Educ. too so that they could pursue the job that they labeled as "in demand" rather than persuading a person who in which cases, education is out of her league. I wanted to take business and thank God that I receive grades that I deserve from my hardwork. They think I'm a failure ever since.. perhaps they have mistaken me from my step brother who is a spoiled brat all who does is sitting around, asking money from my dad, and have no stable job at all.

Tbh, do you feel fucking good about yourself? that you have humiliated someone already? satisfied? How immature and insecure you are, miss. Rubbing in my face all the lies that your mouth keeps on blurting about, don't you realize that good manners comes first before educational attainment? Guess you didn't succeed on that, miss. A well-educated yet not well-mannered person like you won't land on a deserving position, miss. As an optimistic would say "Let them be. Do what you want that makes you happy" honestly, it is true. Knowing that these kind of people won't make you any more happier, why complicate life? At the same time, as a realist, their words will definitely leave a mark that would affect my happiness that results to overthinking.

On a serious note, this is life. Every person will be judged. A tip from the realist (keep on saying that lol), words will come to your ear and will affect your feelings, it will lead you to the point of doubting yourself for like a week or a month but eventually, you'll get through it. You'll be all laughing all those silly lies that they keep on blabbering about and be all like "What now? SUCK IT!" Enjoy what you are doing. Ask help from people if it's necessary because come on, there are times that we can't decide on our own, right? That's the cycle: hear. listen. overthink. be better.

Doubts

Credits from tumblr. 

Anyway, all the bullets listed above is technically me. Not trying to ask for attention and shit but I just want to rant about some parts of my magistical life.

As young as 10, my cousins started to pick on me in a humourous-nothing-personal way. You know, for the sake of laughing. I used to swim a lot and it turned out that I have an uneven complexion  up until now. I have the morena complexion. I have insanely weird height and I have a long chin so they often tease me "negra" "kapre" and "baba". There would be a time that they crossed the line so when I answer them back, they'll get mad at me. They just think that I'm a passive person but I have feelings too ya know. That's the time that I realized I'm "pikon". 

I always keep those flaws in mind because it's really annoying to think about crushes and love related shits. I mean me? Really? Uh. Basically, that's the reason why I'm reluctant and have trust issues. It was some time last year that I never really expect that would happen... when your profile picture gets a bunch of likes from unexpected people. The last time I checked, it's for those gorgeous and popular ones. Glad that I did not become egoistic because it's my choice to change it and it's their's if they want to hit that button or not. Doesn't really matter. Also, when people comliments me. I am absolutely skeptical when I receive those. Are these people bullshiting me? Is it supposed to be the opposite? How do I respond?  I always say the same thing to them but in a comparative way and sometimes I just give them some awkward smile as if I heard something foreign. 

For a person who is used to point out his/her flaws like me, it is difficult to adjust to this compliment game. Those bullets are definitely the last thing that I would think or second to the last I guess. Well, sometimes I do but I tend to erase it in my mind 'cause all I feel is nuisance and it's a bit of cliché. People just come and go and if they'll stay, well geez thanks and if not, then fuck you. Kidding. to those who are not then I had a great time with you people and yeah, fuck you all still. 

What college actually feels like

I was recently informed about the release of DLSUCET/DCAT/De La Salle University College Entrance Test results this week and that was sorta the reason why I'm in the mood of making this post. I remember this day last year was the time I am so tensed about all the college exam results. It was Dec 20 2013, when the DLSUCET results was released for the incoming freshmen 2014. I was in pieces after finding out that I wasn't qualified and well, I cried the whole night and didn't come to school the next day and dude, it was an exam week.

Okay this is coming too dramatic, onto the title. To all incoming freshmen who are scared, confused and excited about college, this is for you all. This is of course based from my experience and let us all go down to the part of what thoughts and perceptions you have there about college. Basically, what your parents told you is more like "Your profs doesn't care if you are present or not" "You will chase the prof""college is not as good as high school" "this is the time that you are trained to the field that you desire" and lots more. THEY ARE ALL LIES, well except the second and last one.

• In DLSU, most professors would require attendance and attendance is 10% of your grade, it's better if you value it.
• I have to say that college feels more liberated than high school. Prolly because you are on your on your own and yeah, the smell of freedom. I AM NOT SAYING TO CUT YOUR CLASSES BECAUSE DUDE, IT WILL REFLECT ON YOUR TOR(Transcript Of Records) AND TOR MEANS A LOT TO EVERY COLLEGE STUDENT. It's better to have a clean reputation rather than a reckless, and an unmotivated one. 
• Never ever cram. Always a bad idea. 
• Universities like ADMU, UP and DLSU wherein doesn't require any uniforms, are sometimes good and bad. Good in a way that you choose what you wear, and in the contrary, you waste your time choosing what is more appropriate and awesome to wear. To be honest with you guys, no one cares about what you wear. You don't have to wear uncomfortable apparels  just to impress and you are going to wear it the whole freaking day (depending on your schedule)
• DLSU is often labeled as students who are: conyo, maarte, mayabang, rich kids etc. GUYS THESE ARE GENERALIZATIONS. Yes there are people who are like that because duh, its a university and composed of various types of people. I have to say that I was in your shoes as well *pats your back*, but guess what, there are generous people in there ya know? I have met all kinds of people in this university and yeah there are some that annoys me and some enlightened me. Don't worry too much about people because it is much of a fixed thing in every universities/colleges.
• Being on the dean's list is the greatest thing ever but sadly, there are students who got carried away by it. Some students tend to become like animals just to get into the DL, they even lose friends 'cause they turned out to be aggressive and possessive about it. Tell you what, DL or not, what matter is you passed. Always remember that. 
• Don't stress yourself too much. Stuffs like thesis paper, research paper, projects etc.? Do it ahead of time and I assure you, it will help you a lot. :) 

Okay, you are probably thinking "You didn't passed DLSU but you're giving tips for those incoming freshmen of 2015" I took the reconsideration exam. I cannot bear the feeling of rejection from the university that I really want to get in to. I passed, thank God. Don't feel embarrassed about yourself when you're taking the exam the second time around but rather, feel thankful because you are given another chance to ace this.

I hope these thoughts will help you throughout your college life. There's a silver lining in everything and never forget to pray. Just enjoy but not too much. :) 

Nov 29 2014: A Merry Special Christmas

I attended this christmas party together with children with Down Syndrome. What drag me into this is basically the fact that they are not just children but I want them to remember something really special and vice versa as christmas is approaching. From the start, I am completely shocked myself that I'm going to attend some christmas party with children. To be completely honest and no offense, I never liked children. I grew up with lots and lots of nephews and nieces which I'm not really comfortable with because of their absurd behavior. Also, during our observation and teaching demo in the school that we've been to, uhh hell. 

Before the christmas party, we had an orientation about what is down syndrome, characteristics etc. 

During the christmas party, we are going to adopt one child and be their ate/kuya throughout the program. I'm glad that the number of volunteers are equal to the number of children who attended. The child that I adopted namely, Christian, age 15 and he is such a sweet and cuuuuute boy. He doesn't resist to my hugs, he listens very well.. he is not resistant, in other words.

We have done all the activities there are and finally, eating time. I spoon feed him and I feel like a mother out there. He was quiet and there's no awkwardess during the spoon feeding session. We have bunch of photos in the photobooth and in my phone as well. 

I feel really grateful that I volunteered because I was completely happy and satisfied that I did everything to let these children feel that they are loved. I hope they make more of this kind of program because it is very fulfilling. 

Bio in love

"It is only proven when you observed it with your five senses, a feeling don't count"

That's what my professor said during her lecture. Some sayings to live by when I ever encounter something irrational. Having an assumption about something that you are not quite sure or confused, please, don't. I promise you, you will always end up disappointed.

It's hard to avoid it 

Obviously, it is difficult but we just have to. Be logical, always. As much as you like the person, women, please keep your composure. Wag kang makati jan. That's why I hate being a woman, there are the do's and don'ts when it comes to this kind of well.... bullshit.

17

We got to spend our birthday in Macau and I have to say it was really nice. Turning 17 feels so different, it feels neutral and at the same time, great. My dad told us "Grow up ha, not grow old" as if he tries to rub it in our faces. There was this thought that hit me "I'm afraid" of what? Basically it's the responsibilities, challenges and the pressure that is building up in my mind set. Just for a seventeen year old I get to think of all these hardships.. why not focus on the good stuff? The blessings, to sum it all up. I am really grateful that I surpass the 16 life and now, here I am, alive and strong. Looking forward to great adventures, bondings, meet new people, making memories and the list goes on. :)

Seenzone

That's the term that is defined as the "virtual friendzone" but not in a romantic way.. probably a term for you being ignored. 

I'll be explaining this in a bigger picture, to start it off, seenzoning is either be good or bad. Let's go on the good side, its actually doesn't mean anything if you see a message that contains a.) chain message b.) like favors and c.) group chats. Regarding the group chat, when a person said "bye" or "thank you", would you even bother replying? If I was seenzoned just for that, I don't mind at all. 

Okay, on the bad side, knowing that you instantly need a reply then all you got was "seen 23:30" wtf dude? let me break it down for ya, a.) asking a sensible question b.) when-you-expect-a-reply message and c.) group chats (you guys probably know what this mean) basically it gives us nuisance for once and sometimes gives us the time to think what we did wrong until it started haunting us. 

For me, it's no big deal but damn it, what is the fucking reason? You had the time to see the damn message but never bother replying? AND YOU KNOW THAT ITS AN IMPORTANT MESSAGE bitch. Second, I am a lazy typer (?) so I don't use emoticons and shit.. only sometimes and when I do, you are fucking special. One main reason why I don't greet people coz they just fucking ignore it. I wait for people to talk to me and sometimes I stand up and talk to them. I don't mean to be dramatic but I think things through and type it all in. 

Why I hate girls

Yes, there are things that I dislike about my fellow women.

• they give meaning to everything though theres none in the first place
• gets jealous easily
• pride as well 
• spread rumours
• who does guyish stuff just to say that she's cool BITCH PLEASE
• taking selfies anywhere in the wrong places
• posts luxurious things 
• assumes a lot
• putting on too much make-up that does not really go well 
• the whores, of course
• conyoooooos
• tweets/status about everything 
• judges fellow women in terms of clothing, face and shit
• loud 
• maarte

Why I hate guys

There are reasons why girls in general dislike guys in so many ways tbh and here they are:

• they just want a super hot gorgeous girl regardless of her attitude
• even if the girl is super kind, the super-hot-gorgeous side is still their basis
• flirty in terms of non-verbal aka chats/social networking sites
• pacool or in other words, trying hard to be cool like wtf
• different attitude when they're with their friends  aka the jerk/douche
• pride
• taking pics of their motherfucking abs WHO DOES THAT 
• insensitive
• promise breaker
• kill joy 
• who thinks they are too old for doing fun things 
• KAPIT yeah with the P
• effortless 
• leaves someone hanging for no reason
• self-conceited

There might be stuffs that other women dislike about these dickfaces but here are just some of them. 

:)

So I've been posting a lot of "sorry for not updating" and I'm so sick of it, really. To be honest, I'm just reaaaaaally lazy to rant and share. Sometimes, when I type in what I want to say, the momentum is a high-low frequency in simple terms, I get really moody. I have to be frank okay because all the "sorry" ain't enough. I won't make any commitments anymore because obviously, I can't keep them. why do i even share this sort of thought? 

Drama mode: on

Last night, I prayed really long and kinda emotional. Approximately 30 mins so wow. Yeah I pray every night mostly all about how I thankful I am for everything but last night, I end up crying because lately, I knew a lot of revelations. Personal revelations in my family. I don't understand the situation tbh and idk the cause of it. Idk why does my dad have to treat us, his family, unfairly between his (my step brother and sister) children. All I could say is that fuck that. His son, Dax, he didn't achieved anything nor have a stable job but my glorious dad still have to spoil him by giving him what he fucking wants. I don't wanna call him as my brother in any aspect and as well to his sister. My dad wastes his effort to advise us to be wise and shit but did he ever looked at his sorry for the word, dumbass son? Does he even have something to be proud of? Only his arrogance is dominant to his petty self. I gathered all what I know and I end up saying "it all makes sense" because tbh I am exposed to this crappy revelations as I get old and it gets really infuriating. In the end, we're the losers cause probably that fatass is laughing his ass off because my dad loves him. Yeah, LOVES. I don't care anyway. It's not always about the money nor the material things. I don't know why does it have to conquer my dad's, mom's, siblings' mind. Money is not always the answer for fuck sake. I mean yeah we need it to spend it to our basic needs and stuff and maybe earn it instead but to use it as your advantage? Putangina. ITS ALL ABOUT BEING FUCKING HUMBLE. Maybe one day your world turns upside down, what now? Nganga? I don't want the issue of my parents, dax and cynthia to be a hinder to my determination to be successful. I really hate it how it affects me big time that I want to cry it all off.

I don't get the logic of casinos. I don't get it why people bother spending their money just because it's "fun". Every dealers gives the power for people to get addicted to that certain gamble. I witnessed a guy who asked my brother if he have some cash to lend. Of course he said no because he is a stranger. Losing  money is not fun at all. I feel really sorry for those people who depend their fortune from a LUCK.

What happened in just two weeks

The title says it all. 

MAY 16-21 2014

We went to South Korea for the yearly vacation with my relative in my dad's side. It is the second time actually. Some didn't joined the trip due to important agendas. South Korea is a great place to be honest but considering the fact that it is such a pain in the ass to commute, I'll give it an 8.5. Imagine walking all the way from Parañaque to Manila, that's how exhausting our trip was. That day was when my LPEP was over and I don't even have enough sleep to freakin' go into a trip that we'll be spending for 5 days. I am not really comfortable with the people I am with actually. I'm good with my cousins of course but with the adults? Naaaah. Hahaha. There are reasons that I can no longer explain further. So to our trip, super tiring power walk of course. We went to some tourist spots and eat. KOREAN FOOD ARE DAMN AWESOME. For a spicy food lover like me, I fully appreciated errthang!! :)   

We went to Lotte World which is an inside-outside amusement park. So big that all you can see are all people lining up to a certain ride. We almost wasted lots of hours in just falling in line and it is really much of an impatient situation. Since its the fun that we're chasing, I don't mind the freakishly long line. 

Shopping timeeee. The place where I first saw a gigantic uniqlo and forever 21 outlet!!!! There are lots of Uniqlo stores around Seoul and perhaps it's their mainstream local store in the city. Not even kidding! Bought some clothes coz college and my first pair of roshe run shoes and other shenanigans haha! 

During the trip, we almost spend our days in the subway. It is such a long process in just riding a train. In the Phil, there are only two main trains; LRT & MRT. But in Seoul, 7 main trains that you can ride around seoul. Plus, there's this transfer thing that I never heard about. Sometimes, there are escalators that only goes down and you'll have to take the stairs to go up. Ironic huh? 

The good thing is, WE SURVIVED. We arrived in Manila around 1 am and it was my first day of school at 7:30 am. Team no sleep yeh. 



THE REST OF MAY

College life begins. It's funny that the majority of my block are going to shift. Met new people and they were actually okay despite some of them are being conyo sometimes. We met our profs and we discovered who's the terror one. I have a long vacant in mondays and wednesdays so I chill at my aunt's house who lives near by my school. I know how to commute finally!! Grown up girl over here hahaha. Okay that's pretty much what happened in those two weeks so yah. 

LPEP experience

LPEP is an orientation program for all the incoming freshmen this year in dlsu.

Let me sum it up for you: 

DAY 1: 

• 7 am 

• register

• my id was "damaged" said the guard though i just got it the day before

• L2 blockmates 

• met our ambassadors, Ate Cecil & Kuya Carlo

• turns out that they are super conyo

• annoying hahahahah 

• yuch hall for orientation

• made friends 

• games

• college is scary :((

• am snacks

• super hungry coz no breakfast

• can i just say that there are hot guys in our block hahahahhahahahaha

• landi 

• orient

• lunch

• orient

• campus tour 

• kapagod talagaaaaaaaaa

• sign out 

DAY 2

• almost the same as day 1 but a lot more fun!

• headed to the auditourium to watch them perform

• it was fun actually :)

Pasta day

Yesterday is pretty much of a "pasta day". Pasta was our breakfast, lunch and dinner. Tbh, I'm actually craving for it. So bad. Spell u m a y HAHA. Then it was the time that my brother and I started to be frank to one another. All of the shit that I hated about him and vice versa, I told him. Sometimes, it really sucks to have a twin. From a perspective of the responsible one, it is a one hella pain in the fuckin' ass. I can't specify any details so in general, IT IS HARD. Sometimes, you can't avoid to think "why am I stuck with this lunatic?". I know, I sound like I'm regretful and stuff but there's some positive side in this situation, it's where you guys have each other's back. Sounds clichè but idc. Gahd this post was supposed to be all about pasta and now.. HAHA ok bye

Living with judgemental people

One thing that sort of annoys me, is that I actually live with judgemental people. The people who I spent my whole life growing up with. My mom and dad sides are all judgemental, my siblings and obviously, my parents. I don't want that trait to sync in my system because it won't do any good anyway. They are nice people, yes. But the way how they judge so easily, I don't know. This is not about ruining names and shit, this is a post of how I cope with their "habit". I judge sometimes but I immediately take the thought back and don't mind their business. That's called "avoiding".. see what I did there? Anyway, whenever I hear them judging about a certain issue, I ignore it. Not being an open-minded, at all. Why would I join in their mini talk show and listen to words/phrases that is just based from the first thought that popped in their mind and poof, goes into their mouth? I'll probably just leave the damn room. It is really hard to deal with these people. Sometimes they don't even notice that they are judgmental and look at it as a normal attitude. Well fuck you then. How can you say that a woman is a slut when she got pregnant? How can you say that a man is lazy when he is working as a janitor? Know the freakin' story first because it is difficult to hear opinions about you when you know it isn't true. We can't please everybody but damn, judging needs to take control. I'm really hoping that one day, these negative thoughts just vanish forever. 

Blissful

Currently at Subic right now!! So we arrived yesterday morning which is way too early from the expected arrival time which is 2 pm. We roam around and ended having a GNO with mom and ate nikki. It is actually weird for people to stare at you for a long time oh wait no.. IT'S CREEPY. Tried avoiding it though but it makes me feel sp conscious HAHA. Today, we went to the beach yayay. The sea is super clear not kidding! I recommend that you should absolutely go to Oceanview Beach Resort. Sobrang sulit! Then I had a henna tattoo in the back of my neck which is a chinese symbol of faith then it is somewhat smudged already :(( We went to ate nikki's grandma's house. We chilled a little and went to their tambayan which is the billiard place. Played some but I don't know how, they forced me hahaha. I'm a n o o b bitchezzz. Hahaha.

Went to SM Olonggapo and damn it's small no offense HAHA. We were supposed to buy something but what we are looking for is not available there. Merienda at Jollibee. Busooooog. 

Night out with ate Nikki and Michael and sobrang awkward!! Ate nikki's friend, Maicko, joined in our table because it's a coincidence that he was in that bar. His friends joined in as well ugh kakahiya :(( The Maicko guy is handsome tho but fc hahaha. What a  d a y

What if...

What if I wasn't born? Michael was the only child that my mother carried in nov 17 1997. Things would be a lot different. 1.) no one will wash the dishes/ help in the household chores. 2.) no future.

What if I was dead?  probably, they'll remember me because i'm all over facebook/twitter and all those condolences. Maybe a few people would actually remember me by heart. 

What if I was adopted? no full blood family, the only fact that can be against me (family fights), wondering who my real family are. 

Sometimes, these what ifs thoughts happen when I'm miserable/sad/depressed/lonely. I just don't know my family anymore. I'm just.... tired. 

Hangover post

So obviously from the title, I'm experiencing a hangover right now. The main reason why I'm typing this post is to see how drunk I am through typing. My stomach hurts like hell because of the damn alcohol. I never really liked alcohols for some reason because all it makes you is 1.) makes your belly big 2.) liver abuse 3.) hangover 4.) vomit. Ugh screw this i don't wanna drink anymoreeeee. Haha yun lang got nothing to do yeah

It turns out that I will go to DLSU. Received my confirmation card and other shenanigans. How hard can it be? Trust in the Lord. Finally found the positive side of this decision that I've made. ALLELUIA!

I passed DLSU. The reconsideration specifically. But after I saw the degree program below, I wasn't that happy. Education? Really? My mind flipped and enroll in Mapua instead. That's where the course that I wanted and that I'm qualified to. I can still transfer to DLSU after a year. I don't want to take that course that they threw me into, despite the fact that I can shift after a year.. but still. I don't feel that much excitement. It is actually funny that my brother and I are still in the same damn school. Hay 

Stupid things that ruins your happiness

During our Solaire adventure, I wanted to kill my nephews and my brother. So bad. I'm not typing this because I'm mad or something because that's what I felt that time. I don't get it how this little stupid thing actually killed my vibe. When we were eating lunch outside of the hotel, my damn brother edit my photo and draw shits around them. Then he lend his phone to my nephews and it's even worse. After we dropped my nephews in their homes, I talked to them for a minute. It's funny how they couldn't even apologize. I talked to their moms and explained them everything. Know their answers? "Bata lang sila eh. Pagpasensyahan mo na." I just answered "Ok". I wanted to say and fucking smack them with "Nasa high school na yang mga yan tas bata pa? Nakakaawa ka naman, magulang ka tas pinapalampas mo lang. Pag inulit pa nila yang kalokohan nila, di ko uurungan yan at papaiyakin ko yan. Seryoso." If ever I told them these words, the only loser in this battle is me. They are shallow minded and all they could say against me is that I'm such a hurtful person. Especially James? Screw that kid because he deserves all the insults in this world. Not trying to be mean, but I won't doubt that he'll receive this karma in the future. He is a hypocrite and uncivilized. I shouldn't have defended him from my mom's hurtful words she said about him because those words were fucking true. If I was given a chance, I'm going to embarrassed them in front of a lot of people. To my brother, I blocked him to every account I have. I'll stop being that sister who'll act like a parent because it's her duty. No. He is already old and he can handle himself. He never did any good deeds for me but headaches.

People who brags a lot

Those people really annoys me for some reason. Humility is better than arrogance just so you know. Yes, we can afford those "things" but never in our life that we ever bragged about it. Of course we don't want to be labeled as "mayabang" "rk" etc. To those people who is fond of rubbing in my face about their achievement, gadgets and shit? If it was only legal to punch someone without getting in trouble, I would've done it long time ago.

Holy Week

Hi guiseeee. I got to blog without getting lazy! Achievement you guys hehe. Anyway, my family and I are in Solaire right now to spend Holy Week!! It is pretty much the first time that we went out on Holy Week because from the past years, WE ARE ALWAYS STUCK AT HOME. As far as I can remember, we never really went out and even if we did, I don't remember because probably I was a toddler or a freaking fetus that time. Yesterday, I can't stop crying because I booked our trip on the wrong date. It was supposed to be tomorrow, the 17th, and my dad got mad at me. I swear the last thing I want to see is my dad getting furiously angry. Then today, my mom got mad at me for not doing my job -chores- right. As we got here, my stubborness sort of fade away and as well as theirs. I was happy indeed. I don't want to get mad at my parents not because they are my parents, but I owe them A LOT. Before I get angry to a person, I always look back all the things he/she did for me. I'm not that person who blames someone whenever I make a mistake. I blame myself instead. But the thought of being depressed? Yes it does come into my mind but it quickly surpass as I come to think "Why should you be sad? Focus on the positive things in life because you have a purpose as you live." I always remember God. Not in times of need, but the fact that He is always there when no one was. I praise Him big time and I'm not ashamed. Why would I? He is an AWESOME GOD. 

That's all hehe. Free high speed wifi = happiness. Have a blessed Holy Week!! x

Here are the photos though: 

More photos yet to come! 

Summeeeeer

Ola amigos! Well hence from the title, happy summer! To an incoming college freshman like me, my summer would be probably the sulitin-na-bawat-segundo summer. It is utterly sad because I'll be leaving all the precious memories I had in high school and yet I am happy because I have graduated in high school. College will be in a few months and I am seriously nervous because I'll be entering this new level in my life. I keep on believing "The Secret" and the progress as of the moment is awesome! Idk, I kept on thinking these positive thoughts and blah I just can't explain!! I'm just so happy okay HAHA. Weirdo.

Anyway, I am truly thankful to the Lord for everything though. He gave me strength to every difficulties I had faced. I am stuck with the thought "What would be my sacrifice for this incoming Holy Week?" I don't really know for some quite odd reason. Last year, I was supposed to sacrifice not using any gadgets and for just an hour or less, I gave up. I am absolutely ashamed of myself huhu. Right now, I don't know yet and I hope I decide soon. I should really update this blog more often, damn! Hahaha. Okay. Good day! *though it's 1:41 am idc*

Life lately

Waddup!!!! It has been 3 months since I last blogged. Well for those 3 months, full of hectic, surprises and ecstacy. Lots of quizzes, projects and perfomance tasks. Guess what, WE PASSED MAPUA!! I kept on telling that to my parents and my brother hahaha. Its a good feeling to pass a university like seriouslehhh. Family day was the bomb! Though my parents weren't there croo :( Graduation in less than a month sigh. My feelings are mixed emotions. The half is summer-oyeah, the other half is ayoko-pa-grumadwate and the one-fourth is so-scared-of-college.

That's all hehehehe. Bye! x