What if...

What if I wasn't born? Michael was the only child that my mother carried in nov 17 1997. Things would be a lot different. 1.) no one will wash the dishes/ help in the household chores. 2.) no future.

What if I was dead?  probably, they'll remember me because i'm all over facebook/twitter and all those condolences. Maybe a few people would actually remember me by heart. 

What if I was adopted? no full blood family, the only fact that can be against me (family fights), wondering who my real family are. 

Sometimes, these what ifs thoughts happen when I'm miserable/sad/depressed/lonely. I just don't know my family anymore. I'm just.... tired. 

Hangover post

So obviously from the title, I'm experiencing a hangover right now. The main reason why I'm typing this post is to see how drunk I am through typing. My stomach hurts like hell because of the damn alcohol. I never really liked alcohols for some reason because all it makes you is 1.) makes your belly big 2.) liver abuse 3.) hangover 4.) vomit. Ugh screw this i don't wanna drink anymoreeeee. Haha yun lang got nothing to do yeah

It turns out that I will go to DLSU. Received my confirmation card and other shenanigans. How hard can it be? Trust in the Lord. Finally found the positive side of this decision that I've made. ALLELUIA!

I passed DLSU. The reconsideration specifically. But after I saw the degree program below, I wasn't that happy. Education? Really? My mind flipped and enroll in Mapua instead. That's where the course that I wanted and that I'm qualified to. I can still transfer to DLSU after a year. I don't want to take that course that they threw me into, despite the fact that I can shift after a year.. but still. I don't feel that much excitement. It is actually funny that my brother and I are still in the same damn school. Hay 

Stupid things that ruins your happiness

During our Solaire adventure, I wanted to kill my nephews and my brother. So bad. I'm not typing this because I'm mad or something because that's what I felt that time. I don't get it how this little stupid thing actually killed my vibe. When we were eating lunch outside of the hotel, my damn brother edit my photo and draw shits around them. Then he lend his phone to my nephews and it's even worse. After we dropped my nephews in their homes, I talked to them for a minute. It's funny how they couldn't even apologize. I talked to their moms and explained them everything. Know their answers? "Bata lang sila eh. Pagpasensyahan mo na." I just answered "Ok". I wanted to say and fucking smack them with "Nasa high school na yang mga yan tas bata pa? Nakakaawa ka naman, magulang ka tas pinapalampas mo lang. Pag inulit pa nila yang kalokohan nila, di ko uurungan yan at papaiyakin ko yan. Seryoso." If ever I told them these words, the only loser in this battle is me. They are shallow minded and all they could say against me is that I'm such a hurtful person. Especially James? Screw that kid because he deserves all the insults in this world. Not trying to be mean, but I won't doubt that he'll receive this karma in the future. He is a hypocrite and uncivilized. I shouldn't have defended him from my mom's hurtful words she said about him because those words were fucking true. If I was given a chance, I'm going to embarrassed them in front of a lot of people. To my brother, I blocked him to every account I have. I'll stop being that sister who'll act like a parent because it's her duty. No. He is already old and he can handle himself. He never did any good deeds for me but headaches.

People who brags a lot

Those people really annoys me for some reason. Humility is better than arrogance just so you know. Yes, we can afford those "things" but never in our life that we ever bragged about it. Of course we don't want to be labeled as "mayabang" "rk" etc. To those people who is fond of rubbing in my face about their achievement, gadgets and shit? If it was only legal to punch someone without getting in trouble, I would've done it long time ago.

Holy Week

Hi guiseeee. I got to blog without getting lazy! Achievement you guys hehe. Anyway, my family and I are in Solaire right now to spend Holy Week!! It is pretty much the first time that we went out on Holy Week because from the past years, WE ARE ALWAYS STUCK AT HOME. As far as I can remember, we never really went out and even if we did, I don't remember because probably I was a toddler or a freaking fetus that time. Yesterday, I can't stop crying because I booked our trip on the wrong date. It was supposed to be tomorrow, the 17th, and my dad got mad at me. I swear the last thing I want to see is my dad getting furiously angry. Then today, my mom got mad at me for not doing my job -chores- right. As we got here, my stubborness sort of fade away and as well as theirs. I was happy indeed. I don't want to get mad at my parents not because they are my parents, but I owe them A LOT. Before I get angry to a person, I always look back all the things he/she did for me. I'm not that person who blames someone whenever I make a mistake. I blame myself instead. But the thought of being depressed? Yes it does come into my mind but it quickly surpass as I come to think "Why should you be sad? Focus on the positive things in life because you have a purpose as you live." I always remember God. Not in times of need, but the fact that He is always there when no one was. I praise Him big time and I'm not ashamed. Why would I? He is an AWESOME GOD. 

That's all hehe. Free high speed wifi = happiness. Have a blessed Holy Week!! x

Here are the photos though: 

More photos yet to come! 

Summeeeeer

Ola amigos! Well hence from the title, happy summer! To an incoming college freshman like me, my summer would be probably the sulitin-na-bawat-segundo summer. It is utterly sad because I'll be leaving all the precious memories I had in high school and yet I am happy because I have graduated in high school. College will be in a few months and I am seriously nervous because I'll be entering this new level in my life. I keep on believing "The Secret" and the progress as of the moment is awesome! Idk, I kept on thinking these positive thoughts and blah I just can't explain!! I'm just so happy okay HAHA. Weirdo.

Anyway, I am truly thankful to the Lord for everything though. He gave me strength to every difficulties I had faced. I am stuck with the thought "What would be my sacrifice for this incoming Holy Week?" I don't really know for some quite odd reason. Last year, I was supposed to sacrifice not using any gadgets and for just an hour or less, I gave up. I am absolutely ashamed of myself huhu. Right now, I don't know yet and I hope I decide soon. I should really update this blog more often, damn! Hahaha. Okay. Good day! *though it's 1:41 am idc*