What's happening in my life right now

• so i got my report card last saturday

• got an average of 90!! super unexpected yet super thankful :-) 

• dad bought me an iphone 5 hehe 

• it was actually my request tho if i got a 90 

• previous post >> 

• letting the feelings go

• i have been really tired lately though i didn't do anything super tiring 

• except studying 

• uninspired to blog at tumblr croo

• life's a bit boring 

• nothing really much exciting

Don't kill my vibes

Did I ever think that he was worth the risk? Of course not and glad that I didn't take any. Kasi puta, nagbirthday na ako at siya pa rin naaalala ko. I even hoped that he'd greet me or something but no, he didn't. WHY DO I HAVE TO CARE SO FUCKING MUCH ABOUT THAT PERSON? Parang akala mo may pakelam siya sakin. Ilang beses ko na sinabi at tinatak sa isip ko na "Wag mo na siya isipin. Pabayaan mo na, wala naman siyang kwenta eh." EH BAT GANON? PARANG HINDI UMAALIS SA PUSO KO NA I STILL LIKE HIM ASDGSJFJKLDJI. Like pa ba yon o iba? Hindi ko rin maintindihan sarili ko eh.. kung bat pa ako nagpapakatanga dito sa nararamdaman ko na ayaw ko na damdamin. All it gives me is annoyance and bullshit. Naiinis ako sa nangyari samin eh. Don't worry it's not sex ayt? Hahaha. Nagpapaka-sweet siya tas ngayon parang walang nangyari. Akala ko ako lang, yun pala sa iba niya rin ginagawa yun tas sabi sakin ng kaibigan ko "Normal sa kanya yun" BAKA MALANDI BAKA LANG. Why does this have to happen so sudden? Did I even deserve to be in pain or in a state where I get pissed off when I see that person? Kaya ayoko humantong sa ganito when I'm attached to someone, I'm getting my hopes up and disappointments will ruin the scene. I didn't liked him or lead into something that I can't handle on purpose. Hay life. I'll be better next time and I hope that next time is not near from today. Years maybe? idk, wag lang ngayon because I have much things to take care of other than this fucking sawi sa pag-ibig thing. 

Incoming birthday

We'll be leaving for Thailand tomorrow. Glad that we booked the flights on the right time because fri-mon will be our foundation day. Turning 16 on sunday!!!! That is pretty much the reason why we made this trip.. to celebrate our birthday. I have a twin brother so its our. Anyway, I felt uncomfortable again as I answered my friends' question "San kayo punta?" I am thinking a proper lie so that I am not trying to be arrogant and be told "RK niyo." It turned out they knew that we are going to Thailand because they knew I was lying. Yeah I got the response that I don't want to hear... "Yaman niyo." That's the thing why I don't want answering questions where it would actually lead to something I don't want to happen. I don't want to be treated as a different person all because we can afford those expensive stuff.

Well it has been an awesome year to be 15. Though there were stuff that were difficult and my immaturity that I've turned into sometimes..  but I am thankful that I passed through that. Now that I am entering a new age, I'll be wiser, mature enough and optimistic. I am sick of thinking and caring too much. Cheers! 

Yolanda

I think the whole world knows that the Philippines is in state of calamity right now. News report says that Yolanda will be the strongest typhoon of the year..of course I am scared as fuck. Here at my city, there's no heavy rains as of the moment but it is super windy. Still, I am scared. Tacloban city must have been the dangerous city of all. The rain is non-stop, elecricity and telephone lines were cut off, houses were destroyed. There's a part inside me where I am feeling blessed because I didn't or will be experience that and at the same time, I feel sorry for myself because there's nothing that I can do to help them but pray and pray.