17

We got to spend our birthday in Macau and I have to say it was really nice. Turning 17 feels so different, it feels neutral and at the same time, great. My dad told us "Grow up ha, not grow old" as if he tries to rub it in our faces. There was this thought that hit me "I'm afraid" of what? Basically it's the responsibilities, challenges and the pressure that is building up in my mind set. Just for a seventeen year old I get to think of all these hardships.. why not focus on the good stuff? The blessings, to sum it all up. I am really grateful that I surpass the 16 life and now, here I am, alive and strong. Looking forward to great adventures, bondings, meet new people, making memories and the list goes on. :)

Seenzone

That's the term that is defined as the "virtual friendzone" but not in a romantic way.. probably a term for you being ignored. 

I'll be explaining this in a bigger picture, to start it off, seenzoning is either be good or bad. Let's go on the good side, its actually doesn't mean anything if you see a message that contains a.) chain message b.) like favors and c.) group chats. Regarding the group chat, when a person said "bye" or "thank you", would you even bother replying? If I was seenzoned just for that, I don't mind at all. 

Okay, on the bad side, knowing that you instantly need a reply then all you got was "seen 23:30" wtf dude? let me break it down for ya, a.) asking a sensible question b.) when-you-expect-a-reply message and c.) group chats (you guys probably know what this mean) basically it gives us nuisance for once and sometimes gives us the time to think what we did wrong until it started haunting us. 

For me, it's no big deal but damn it, what is the fucking reason? You had the time to see the damn message but never bother replying? AND YOU KNOW THAT ITS AN IMPORTANT MESSAGE bitch. Second, I am a lazy typer (?) so I don't use emoticons and shit.. only sometimes and when I do, you are fucking special. One main reason why I don't greet people coz they just fucking ignore it. I wait for people to talk to me and sometimes I stand up and talk to them. I don't mean to be dramatic but I think things through and type it all in. 

Why I hate girls

Yes, there are things that I dislike about my fellow women.

• they give meaning to everything though theres none in the first place
• gets jealous easily
• pride as well 
• spread rumours
• who does guyish stuff just to say that she's cool BITCH PLEASE
• taking selfies anywhere in the wrong places
• posts luxurious things 
• assumes a lot
• putting on too much make-up that does not really go well 
• the whores, of course
• conyoooooos
• tweets/status about everything 
• judges fellow women in terms of clothing, face and shit
• loud 
• maarte

Why I hate guys

There are reasons why girls in general dislike guys in so many ways tbh and here they are:

• they just want a super hot gorgeous girl regardless of her attitude
• even if the girl is super kind, the super-hot-gorgeous side is still their basis
• flirty in terms of non-verbal aka chats/social networking sites
• pacool or in other words, trying hard to be cool like wtf
• different attitude when they're with their friends  aka the jerk/douche
• pride
• taking pics of their motherfucking abs WHO DOES THAT 
• insensitive
• promise breaker
• kill joy 
• who thinks they are too old for doing fun things 
• KAPIT yeah with the P
• effortless 
• leaves someone hanging for no reason
• self-conceited

There might be stuffs that other women dislike about these dickfaces but here are just some of them. 

:)

So I've been posting a lot of "sorry for not updating" and I'm so sick of it, really. To be honest, I'm just reaaaaaally lazy to rant and share. Sometimes, when I type in what I want to say, the momentum is a high-low frequency in simple terms, I get really moody. I have to be frank okay because all the "sorry" ain't enough. I won't make any commitments anymore because obviously, I can't keep them. why do i even share this sort of thought?