Agitated; Anxious

Just want to type this out. March 4 will be the results of my shifting exam aka MY FUTURE and I feel really suckish right now. That agitated feeling whenever that date is drawing near, incredible. Not. I don't fucking care what you call me but whenever I pray, these tears keeps on overflowing because when I start mentioning that exam, I start to throb, my booger's falling down, my voice become husky and I keep on snorting. It is seriously a big deal. A while ago, the Marketing results were out and my friend passed. I congratulated him of course. As for me, I didn't took the Marketing course. Ya'll think I took the exam then failed right? Nah. I can sense that it will all come up with an explosion saying that "You passed" or "You failed" in my head. I want to curl up in bed and think of how much this thing will turn out to. But whatever happens, Thank you Lord.

Feb 12 2015

Valentine's day has always been a normal day for me ever since and no, it's not because of bitterness. As if I even had an experience. I just think that it's not that much of a big deal. I used to believe it's only for couples and married couples. In highschool, flowers and chocolates are so mainstream that you'll get tired of it. Never ending 'boy surprises girl' in my classroom, in the hallway, and even outside. That's how much of a big deal valentines is for them. 

What's the point of these photos anyway? Basically, my first time to ever receive this kind of thing. And my first time to see a real sunflower my whole life. It kept me puzzled, I mean who would even bother giving this kind of thing? To me? As my previous post, I'm a skeptical person. I always think of ALL worst case scenarios: "Trying to trip me up" "might've been the wrong Michelle"  

I hate feeling this way but at the same I time, I know I should. It keeps me away from my ego. But there's just this 1/4 of me appreciating this flower and as well to the person who sent it. It has a card attached to it, and yeah, he got my name right and my room number. A good thank you is enough. 

Also, it was February 12 that I received it. It has been a week and the flower withered. Sucks. I decided to insert the petals in my journal. You know, for memories. 

The Vamps in Manila

Yeah you read it right... the madaeffin VAMPS nigguhhhh. Hahah ok that was so weird lol. Anyway, watched these lovely people live with the usuals, Erika and Michael! 

            James, my love.

                Bradleeeeey

I didn't took that much photos 'cause what's the essence of a concert if you're just holding your gadgets the whole time? How boring is that?!