Don't kill my vibes

Did I ever think that he was worth the risk? Of course not and glad that I didn't take any. Kasi puta, nagbirthday na ako at siya pa rin naaalala ko. I even hoped that he'd greet me or something but no, he didn't. WHY DO I HAVE TO CARE SO FUCKING MUCH ABOUT THAT PERSON? Parang akala mo may pakelam siya sakin. Ilang beses ko na sinabi at tinatak sa isip ko na "Wag mo na siya isipin. Pabayaan mo na, wala naman siyang kwenta eh." EH BAT GANON? PARANG HINDI UMAALIS SA PUSO KO NA I STILL LIKE HIM ASDGSJFJKLDJI. Like pa ba yon o iba? Hindi ko rin maintindihan sarili ko eh.. kung bat pa ako nagpapakatanga dito sa nararamdaman ko na ayaw ko na damdamin. All it gives me is annoyance and bullshit. Naiinis ako sa nangyari samin eh. Don't worry it's not sex ayt? Hahaha. Nagpapaka-sweet siya tas ngayon parang walang nangyari. Akala ko ako lang, yun pala sa iba niya rin ginagawa yun tas sabi sakin ng kaibigan ko "Normal sa kanya yun" BAKA MALANDI BAKA LANG. Why does this have to happen so sudden? Did I even deserve to be in pain or in a state where I get pissed off when I see that person? Kaya ayoko humantong sa ganito when I'm attached to someone, I'm getting my hopes up and disappointments will ruin the scene. I didn't liked him or lead into something that I can't handle on purpose. Hay life. I'll be better next time and I hope that next time is not near from today. Years maybe? idk, wag lang ngayon because I have much things to take care of other than this fucking sawi sa pag-ibig thing.